About Me

I thought my journey into the healing realm would be simple: go to college, get your masters, get your required clinical hours, become a therapist, and help the world. Little did I know that this would be far from the truth.

My academic experience was filled with contradictions. Observing the systemic chasm that exists between the classroom and holding space for the Universe’s darkest shadows was unavoidable for me. I tried my best to “be the change” within the system, attempting to balance its required rigidity with my best understanding of decolonization (at the time). I was also in the beginning stages of deconstructing my high control Christian religion I grew up in as that proved to be deeply unhelpful in the shadow of what I was facing. It was a battle that would continue to ensue until the Universe changed the trajectory of my journey.

In early 2020 I received a phone call that my brother had died by suicide. As a therapist who was close to licensure, and as a sibling, I was devastated beyond words. My brother’s death tore a hole in my soul that felt impossible to mend back together. The weight of the grief and trauma of reality felt all consuming and sent me into the beginning of my deepest healing journey. Here I found energy healing, psychedelics, somatic body work, and a grueling journey of finding a therapist who could hold space for what I was experiencing. Two years after my brother died, almost to the day, my mom started having health complications that led to a biopsy which revealed she had stage 4 pancreatic cancer. With chemo, she would have 9 months left to live. There are endless aspects that are not discussed in the public conversation of grief, but one of the most powerful is that in death, your family’s shadow becomes fully revealed. All the things you & your family buried or avoided become unleashed into your awareness. I struggled to find my way through the devastation of my life as it felt like everything I knew was crumbling around me. My new marriage was deteriorating and I was forced to strip my ego down to the bare bones - abandoning all the things that once made me feel secure and important in this world. This was a sink or swim moment for me, so to help me stay grounded in what was being asked of me, I developed a personal motto that came to fruition in the most challenging way: “Burn it Down.”

So that’s exactly what I did. After my mom died I moved across the country, initiated my divorce, abandoned my therapy license, and continued to dive into what felt like my dark night of the soul. In the process, I officially abandoned my high control religious structures and traded them in for a healing relationship with the Divine through Nature. I tapped into the healing power of the Universe through energy work and discovered healing that expanded far beyond what the therapy container could hold. I journeyed my way through a world I viewed as inherently traumatizing and found hope, abundance, and gratitude. I discovered, and continue to uncover, my own sovereignty. I developed a relationship with my own body’s capacity for healing and how Nature mirrors that to me every moment of the day. Through the spirit of herbs, plant medicine, animals, and the changing seasons I found divinity and the safety to sit with my shadow.

I am still on this healing journey and I suspect that I will always have a desire to go deeper, to explore the unending depth of Divinity. Out of respect for my Soul’s incarnation there is more shadow to sit with, more to uncover, and more to decolonize. The work is challenging always, but the gifts you receive along the way provide the resiliency required to do this work.

It would be an honor to have the opportunity to hold space for you, to assist in co-creating safety and abundance in your life. Sustainable healing expands far beyond regulating your nervous system and lives in the space of befriending your shadow. Your deepest healing does not live in the systems we were raised to believe keep us safe - it lives in the wisdom of our ancestors from long ago, in the Land, and in the Universe. The ground we walk is sacred and our disconnection from that is a wounding that can absolutely be healed. Trust me, you’re capable of more than you realize.